Deja Vu

So I just found out Saturday night that for the past 18 years I've had a cousin in Heaven! 18 years ago in March my mom found out that she was pregnant. About a month later she started to bleed. As most of you mother's know when you start to bleed while pregnant that means there is something terribly wrong. The doctors even told my mom to go home and wait because I was going to die. But a miracle happened...I survived!! But the same thing happened to my Aunt, but she lost her baby and I never knew that!! I was just thinking that it's not fair for me to have lived, but for my Aunt's baby to live. Would we have been best cousins? What would he/ she looked like or been like? But the crazy thing ab out it is that my Aunt got pregnant again right after and she had my cousin, Zachary, in February. Zach and I are best friends!! If the baby hadn't have died Zach would never have been born!!! Two Case babies might have been in Heaven if God hadn't spared my life...I must have a really special purpose in my life for God to have saved me...But why was I never told about my Aunt's baby? What other family secrets don't I know? Will I ever find my special purpose? Thank you God for sparing my life!!